Im not beautiful or pretty.
I am just an ordinary girl with an ordinary face with an ordinary life, who is having a hard time with other people, who haven’t and couldn’t fall in love with someone, a girl who is just trying to patch up her life.
I used to hate talking to people, because they scares me,
thats why I became so uneasy with them.
before I knew it I had built a wall protectively around me, so when I realized that I was already drowning with loneliness,
I wanted to try again. to chamge.
So why? why is it that whenever I stay at one place for a long time, someone will have to come and like me? when all I ever wanted was to meet new people.
And try to enjoy my time with them. But with someone liking me, and sometimes obviously trying to make me feel the same, it makes me uncomfortable that I wanted to just curl up in my safe little bubble and return to how I was before and becomes even worst because of another addition to my guilt collection, that just keeps piling up. and it feels like all of it was all my fault for even trying.
and makes me think that I never should’ve tried.